Ever since I quit drinking diet soda I have been having the strangest dreams and my sleep habits are out of whack! I keep having this recurring dream every few nights, but it changes a little bit each time. I had it again last night and it was SO vivid I just had to share. You might think I’m a crazy commitment-phobic person, but I really don’t think I am … except for maybe in my dreams? Every few nights I dream about getting married. It’s sort of ironic considering I’m single and I’m not even seeing anyone anymore. It’s even MORE ironic because I’ve never been the type of girl to dream about having a wedding, what color the bridesmaids dresses will be, or even where to honeymoon. It’s just not something that has ever been on my radar and truthfully when the day comes, I’ll probably end up doing it some unconventional way. Ok, so back to my dream. I wake up in a PANIC.

Each time I have this dream, it’s like a half hour before I’m supposed to walk down the aisle and I’m in a FRENZY. In the dream I am totally rational and I tell myself not to go through with it, he’s not my soul mate, I’ll end up a divorce statistic… I tell myself thousands of reasons not to go through with it. Then, I remind myself of all of the people waiting for me to come out, prance down the aisle to the DREADED ORGAN PLAYING THE BRIDAL MARCH, and marry this dude. (This dude by the way ALWAYS has dark hair and I can’t see his face. The strangest thing of all is that I usually date guys with light colored hair and NEVER brunettes.) I always wake up right before I decide whether or not to go through with it, but every time I dream this, I’m having a total psycho-panic-fit in my dressing room. How could a person IN REALITY, let themselves get that far into a commitment without having doubts before a wedding day? It probably doesn’t even happen. My subconscious is TERRIFIED of making a life mistake. I have always been so afraid to screw up my life, that now the fear is INVADING MY DREAMS TOO!  My mom is probably going to read this and tell me I need help. That’s a good possibility.