8.7.08 I need some serious help
|
I don't even know where to start. I tried to go to bed early last night, but I just couldn't fall asleep! I ended up reading the September COSMOPOLITAN cover to cover and crashing out by midnight. (BTW-that mag is getting semi-lame..."What he wants in a girlfriend!" GIVE ME A BREAK! What about what we SHOULD want in a boyfriend, rather than the ones we settle for!) I digress... I woke up around 7am (a whole hour before my alarm clock was set to go out) from my LOUD phone vibrating from text messages. It was so weird though. I was FREEZING COLD, but my feet were like ... balmy!? Explain that one for me. I sleep without a fan or air conditioner because I HATE waking up cold. Weird. I can't stop thinking about how strange that is ... sweaty bare feet. I wonder if that means something? After returning a few texts back and forth, I was up for the day. Little did I know, I WAS GOING TO HAVE AN ENTIRE DAYS WORTH OF DRAMA BEFORE 10am!!!
My apartment was suddenly invaded by fruit flies. My mom announced she's coming for the weekend. My ex decides to start contacting me out of the woodwork. Tomorrow I get my first tattoo.
Ok, get yourself together Amanda.
I decide to tackle each of these things one by one, mind you ... my apartment is a HIDEOUS mess from being away last week and not taking the recommended 1 day between vaca and going back to work to get your life together.
I run to Walmart to get something everyone keeps referring to as a "fly strip." Wouldn't you know I couldn't even find BUG REPELLANT anywhere. I wandered for 20 minutes while elderly people kept STOPPING MID-AISLE and then slamming their HUGE-full carts into me. HOLY! I was about ready to have a freakin anxiety attack in the middle of Walmart. Oh wait, I did. All of a sudden my eyes filled with tears. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD WHERE IS THE FREAKIN INSECT SPRAY!!!!!?????!!!!!!
I never got this so-called "fly strip," but I did get some kind of spray that i'm praying will work ... and a new LIP GLOSS that promises to last 8 hours! I'll let you know how that goes...
Just when I thought I couldn't get more overwhelmed, I went to get ready for work and saw that I was OUT OF EYELINER! How do you NOT realize the day before that you're GOING to be out soon. Who knows.
On top of my mom coming tomorrow, no eyeliner, fruit flies, my apartment being a mess, and the ex telling me things i'm just so over and don't really care to hear ... TOMORROW I AM GETTING MY FIRST TATTOO EVER AND I'M NOT GONNA LIE ... THAT'S KIND OF SCARY!!! I am going into anxiety OVERDRIVE today.
We've all had days like these before, but I deal with them by bursting into tears and then laughing at myself. I wish it could JUST be the laughing part, but afterall, i'm human.
|
|
|
|
|
